Post by Konan on Jun 7, 2019 11:18:32 GMT -5
Dearest Narutoverse4RP,
Gosh, guys. It's been a long, long time. 14 years at that! I hope you've all learned to adult properly over the years. I know I haven't!
If you're wondering why I'm writing this, it's because I miss all of you dearly and so so much. You might be wondering why you mean so much to me, a pretty much nameless faceless stranger on the internet... truth is, you guys on this board were one of the better things about my life.
My name is Konan, or at least that's what I was known on here. I was invited by Oro-sama (love you and your cookies) to join the board in 2005. I was 15. Now I am 28, a functioning adult with a job and a life... and it's mostly thanks to you guys on Narutoverse4RP.
You don't know this but when I was on the site, I was a really awkward and lonely teenager. I didn't have the best family growing up. I was pretty much the black sheep and treated accordingly because I wasn't typically studious or good at Real Life achievements. Typical authoritarian Asian families, go figure. I was more creative than STEM-scientific. And I wanted to write stories instead of getting straight As. So most of my life at home were scoldings telling me how I would amount to nothing and that I was stupid, banning my computer time so that I would study instead of write.. etc.
My family affected the way I related to people. My self esteem and self worth were extremely low and I didn't know how to handle it.
I was always fearful and "behaving". Because my family saw me as an outcast, I thought everyone else would too. Not knowing how to be myself, it was hard to make real meaningful friendships in school. Then, Oro brought me here and it was just the BEST THING EVER!
I looked forward to coming online to this board every day after school. Talking to you guys was the highlight of my day. Here, I felt safe being myself. I could be the biggest bloody weirdo and none of you would give a shit because you were all so kind and accepting.
I was shy at first, afraid I'd upset someone and make them dislike me. That's what happens when you bring your social anxieties online. But the longer I stayed (2 years!), the more comfortable I got. You probably don't realise but you guys gave me confidence and laughter with your whacky antics in the C-Box and RP games. Like the glomping brawls and cookie parties and weird Tobi / Oro pairings...
You guys made me feel accepted. Whenever I came online and said hi, you guys responded with the warmest, most enthusiastic welcome. Most of all, you guys enjoyed my company and silliness which is the opposite of how real life made me feel. And in a strange turn of events, it changed my life too. The positivity from this board made me happier in real life and taught me how to get out of my shell. I started making more friends and life just got better.
Christmas on Narutoverse4RP was my favourite time. It was pretty special to me. Oro organised a Secret Santa which was my first ever. I remember asking her, HUH? WOTS DAT?? And she had to explain. Then on Christmas, we swapped our gifts which were anything personalised... fanfics, crackfics, banners, art etc. We were also coming online to "celebrate" with each other. I thought it was so beautiful that here we are, complete strangers from all over the world and different time zones... taking time from real life to spend Christmas together.
This is why, 14 years later, I still can't forget you wonderful humans and the amazing time you gave me when I joined Narutoverse4RP. It brings me back to lurk from time to time and I hope you guys can know how much you have helped me grow into a happier person even though the board is dead.
You guys were like family. You gave me confidence and a break from real life, a safe spot where I could be my weirdest. You made me laugh. I still keep the fanfic Ino wrote me btw. And if I could meet you all in real life, I would express my gratitude all over again.
Sometimes I look back and wish the board continued and that we all stayed in touch. But life is a bitch and that didn't happen. We all grew up and became strangers once again but I dare say we are better people because of this. I know I am! In a way, we have stopped being characters and returned to being real people and I must admit .... I do wonder what you guys are up to nowadays. My optimism likes to imagine you are all living your happiest lives possible, creating some kind of art and bringing delights to the people in your circles with your wonderful sense of humours and bright personalities. Truly, you are all a wonderful, talented bunch of souls.
And until today, cookies always reminds me of Oro.
Missing every one of you 14 years on.
<3
Konan
(Shan)
Gosh, guys. It's been a long, long time. 14 years at that! I hope you've all learned to adult properly over the years. I know I haven't!
If you're wondering why I'm writing this, it's because I miss all of you dearly and so so much. You might be wondering why you mean so much to me, a pretty much nameless faceless stranger on the internet... truth is, you guys on this board were one of the better things about my life.
My name is Konan, or at least that's what I was known on here. I was invited by Oro-sama (love you and your cookies) to join the board in 2005. I was 15. Now I am 28, a functioning adult with a job and a life... and it's mostly thanks to you guys on Narutoverse4RP.
You don't know this but when I was on the site, I was a really awkward and lonely teenager. I didn't have the best family growing up. I was pretty much the black sheep and treated accordingly because I wasn't typically studious or good at Real Life achievements. Typical authoritarian Asian families, go figure. I was more creative than STEM-scientific. And I wanted to write stories instead of getting straight As. So most of my life at home were scoldings telling me how I would amount to nothing and that I was stupid, banning my computer time so that I would study instead of write.. etc.
My family affected the way I related to people. My self esteem and self worth were extremely low and I didn't know how to handle it.
I was always fearful and "behaving". Because my family saw me as an outcast, I thought everyone else would too. Not knowing how to be myself, it was hard to make real meaningful friendships in school. Then, Oro brought me here and it was just the BEST THING EVER!
I looked forward to coming online to this board every day after school. Talking to you guys was the highlight of my day. Here, I felt safe being myself. I could be the biggest bloody weirdo and none of you would give a shit because you were all so kind and accepting.
I was shy at first, afraid I'd upset someone and make them dislike me. That's what happens when you bring your social anxieties online. But the longer I stayed (2 years!), the more comfortable I got. You probably don't realise but you guys gave me confidence and laughter with your whacky antics in the C-Box and RP games. Like the glomping brawls and cookie parties and weird Tobi / Oro pairings...
You guys made me feel accepted. Whenever I came online and said hi, you guys responded with the warmest, most enthusiastic welcome. Most of all, you guys enjoyed my company and silliness which is the opposite of how real life made me feel. And in a strange turn of events, it changed my life too. The positivity from this board made me happier in real life and taught me how to get out of my shell. I started making more friends and life just got better.
Christmas on Narutoverse4RP was my favourite time. It was pretty special to me. Oro organised a Secret Santa which was my first ever. I remember asking her, HUH? WOTS DAT?? And she had to explain. Then on Christmas, we swapped our gifts which were anything personalised... fanfics, crackfics, banners, art etc. We were also coming online to "celebrate" with each other. I thought it was so beautiful that here we are, complete strangers from all over the world and different time zones... taking time from real life to spend Christmas together.
This is why, 14 years later, I still can't forget you wonderful humans and the amazing time you gave me when I joined Narutoverse4RP. It brings me back to lurk from time to time and I hope you guys can know how much you have helped me grow into a happier person even though the board is dead.
You guys were like family. You gave me confidence and a break from real life, a safe spot where I could be my weirdest. You made me laugh. I still keep the fanfic Ino wrote me btw. And if I could meet you all in real life, I would express my gratitude all over again.
Sometimes I look back and wish the board continued and that we all stayed in touch. But life is a bitch and that didn't happen. We all grew up and became strangers once again but I dare say we are better people because of this. I know I am! In a way, we have stopped being characters and returned to being real people and I must admit .... I do wonder what you guys are up to nowadays. My optimism likes to imagine you are all living your happiest lives possible, creating some kind of art and bringing delights to the people in your circles with your wonderful sense of humours and bright personalities. Truly, you are all a wonderful, talented bunch of souls.
And until today, cookies always reminds me of Oro.
Missing every one of you 14 years on.
<3
Konan
(Shan)
